Finally, and naturally, 2008 arrived. 2007 seemed to have came and went like an uncatchable breeze, as in time itself. I remembered when the clock struck midnight on new years’ eve, my mind was kind of blank after the initial elevated heart rate and sense of anticipation during the last 5 seconds of 2007.
New year, new you. Seems to be a good way and reason to restart, reboot, another fresh page of your life awaiting to be written.
Some people like to suffer to feel alive...have you heard of that saying? I can relate to that to a certain extent. Decided to channel some energies towards more gym visits, one of my new years’ resolution to keep fit, so I can eat whatever I want without compromising my ever decreasing metabolism. In exchange of the physical suffering, I aim to maximize the natural high from the endorphins after the workout plus learn some perseverance along the way. I have conquered the step machine I have avoided my whole life thrice this year and learnt to change my feelings for it from loathe to respect. This is another cheapthrill milestone after my treadmill conquest 18 months ago.
Talk about natural high. Everyone likes to feel good, wants to feel good, seeks to feel good. There are many ways to attain that feeling. Thus, apart from working out a sweat to feel better, am still seeking love. Hah! What else huh…so predictable… Love…presents itself in many different kinds and ways as we all know. Everyone is loved by someone and more. I know therefore I am too. But sometimes it gets hard to see or feel the love. Perhaps the more you need it, the more evasive they get, like some twisted murphys’ law. I am choosing to be passive on the receiving end, though still happy to be aggressive giving it… being a hopeless sentimentalist and emotionalist, money can make the world go round, but love is what keeps it round.
Words have been constipated lately, put that to having too many thoughts overcrowding my mind, too messy to consolidate and translate to words to accurately reflect what I am feeling. As you may already realize that by now, this entry is sort of all over the place. Apologies if it looks like a feeble attempt to have the decency to organize my thoughts properly before sharing, but such is also an accurate reflection of my state of mind. I hope to see more clarity after getting these all out.
It’s nice to have friends organize surprise parties for you…shows that you are blessed and loved…someone cares…someone bothers…had a dear friend who received such royal treatment recently, glad to witness these things happening to people who are also dear to me…already blessed and grateful to have what I have, perhaps already taken more than I deserved anyway. I wished I was there to witness the whole event, but I was on a trip and have to miss it. Just want to feel the magic of it all.
Another dear friend finally made me remove all my dingle-dangles from one of my mobile phones because she gave me a swaroski mobile phone strap for the new year. I thought why not since it’s the beginning of a new year after all. It felt like a totally new and unfamiliar phone when it was done yesterday…sort of weird for me still.
A lot of those dangly bits that I have removed are given by friends. One is a weather charm for good weather wherever I fly to; a 3-inch snoopy-hugging-a-donut screen wiper(which I had to promise to use it before I got it. I can now say it has since been over-utilised past it’s projected retirement date), snoopy not white anymore, and battle-scarred too from all my rough handlings; an amulet given to me wishing all my dreams will come true; a skeleton jack head to honour my love for animation nightmare before Christmas…you get the idea about the clutter size by now I think.
Finally got a new 80GB ipod classic for Christmas to replace my 3rd generation dying original love, so happy that all my songs can be reunited!! Some friends ask why need so many songs when my nano with a capacity of 500songs is already plenty for most…guessed I just like that idea…all 7340 songs together and counting….still have space to put photos on top of the prints I carry around so I can feel even closer to my loved ones when I travel. I am starting to reconsolidate my playlists, which may be time-consuming, but am more than happy to oblige whenever I can.
Am also starting training as a senior in a couple of days. Have been having mixed feelings about that since I did not feel as happy or excited as I thought I will be when I got the promotion. Have done none of the assignments that I need to complete before training starts, but I guess have to grin and bare it and finish off the minimal in the next 36 hours. May still be apprehensive but guess you never know what’s in store for you until you give it a shot right? I may not be a natural born leader, but I hope I will be equipped with some useful skills during the course of the training that is really applicable and beneficial to know for any job. Time to learn something new and put my rusting brain to use! Worse come to worse, I shall go back to my little happy monotonous life in first class where responsibilities end after every landing.
The only thing that sucks is that my 4-day training is in the middle of my birthday. Then again, such is life right. It’s not the best case scenario I have envisioned but also no big deal I tell myself. Just a stupid birthday and getting older officially…nothing much to celebrate I console myself…although it will still be nice to spend the special day in Nice for the 1st time(last year), or just be in Singapore year before last…get a grip Sharon and snap out of it now! Pointless to go in circles about this. New year, new you!
New year, new you. Seems to be a good way and reason to restart, reboot, another fresh page of your life awaiting to be written.
Some people like to suffer to feel alive...have you heard of that saying? I can relate to that to a certain extent. Decided to channel some energies towards more gym visits, one of my new years’ resolution to keep fit, so I can eat whatever I want without compromising my ever decreasing metabolism. In exchange of the physical suffering, I aim to maximize the natural high from the endorphins after the workout plus learn some perseverance along the way. I have conquered the step machine I have avoided my whole life thrice this year and learnt to change my feelings for it from loathe to respect. This is another cheapthrill milestone after my treadmill conquest 18 months ago.
Talk about natural high. Everyone likes to feel good, wants to feel good, seeks to feel good. There are many ways to attain that feeling. Thus, apart from working out a sweat to feel better, am still seeking love. Hah! What else huh…so predictable… Love…presents itself in many different kinds and ways as we all know. Everyone is loved by someone and more. I know therefore I am too. But sometimes it gets hard to see or feel the love. Perhaps the more you need it, the more evasive they get, like some twisted murphys’ law. I am choosing to be passive on the receiving end, though still happy to be aggressive giving it… being a hopeless sentimentalist and emotionalist, money can make the world go round, but love is what keeps it round.
Words have been constipated lately, put that to having too many thoughts overcrowding my mind, too messy to consolidate and translate to words to accurately reflect what I am feeling. As you may already realize that by now, this entry is sort of all over the place. Apologies if it looks like a feeble attempt to have the decency to organize my thoughts properly before sharing, but such is also an accurate reflection of my state of mind. I hope to see more clarity after getting these all out.
It’s nice to have friends organize surprise parties for you…shows that you are blessed and loved…someone cares…someone bothers…had a dear friend who received such royal treatment recently, glad to witness these things happening to people who are also dear to me…already blessed and grateful to have what I have, perhaps already taken more than I deserved anyway. I wished I was there to witness the whole event, but I was on a trip and have to miss it. Just want to feel the magic of it all.
Another dear friend finally made me remove all my dingle-dangles from one of my mobile phones because she gave me a swaroski mobile phone strap for the new year. I thought why not since it’s the beginning of a new year after all. It felt like a totally new and unfamiliar phone when it was done yesterday…sort of weird for me still.
A lot of those dangly bits that I have removed are given by friends. One is a weather charm for good weather wherever I fly to; a 3-inch snoopy-hugging-a-donut screen wiper(which I had to promise to use it before I got it. I can now say it has since been over-utilised past it’s projected retirement date), snoopy not white anymore, and battle-scarred too from all my rough handlings; an amulet given to me wishing all my dreams will come true; a skeleton jack head to honour my love for animation nightmare before Christmas…you get the idea about the clutter size by now I think.
Finally got a new 80GB ipod classic for Christmas to replace my 3rd generation dying original love, so happy that all my songs can be reunited!! Some friends ask why need so many songs when my nano with a capacity of 500songs is already plenty for most…guessed I just like that idea…all 7340 songs together and counting….still have space to put photos on top of the prints I carry around so I can feel even closer to my loved ones when I travel. I am starting to reconsolidate my playlists, which may be time-consuming, but am more than happy to oblige whenever I can.
Am also starting training as a senior in a couple of days. Have been having mixed feelings about that since I did not feel as happy or excited as I thought I will be when I got the promotion. Have done none of the assignments that I need to complete before training starts, but I guess have to grin and bare it and finish off the minimal in the next 36 hours. May still be apprehensive but guess you never know what’s in store for you until you give it a shot right? I may not be a natural born leader, but I hope I will be equipped with some useful skills during the course of the training that is really applicable and beneficial to know for any job. Time to learn something new and put my rusting brain to use! Worse come to worse, I shall go back to my little happy monotonous life in first class where responsibilities end after every landing.
The only thing that sucks is that my 4-day training is in the middle of my birthday. Then again, such is life right. It’s not the best case scenario I have envisioned but also no big deal I tell myself. Just a stupid birthday and getting older officially…nothing much to celebrate I console myself…although it will still be nice to spend the special day in Nice for the 1st time(last year), or just be in Singapore year before last…get a grip Sharon and snap out of it now! Pointless to go in circles about this. New year, new you!
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