Sorry have not been writing as much as I had wanted to, as if I was lost. Just got all the long trips and now fighting a stubborn cold that won’t go away.
Incidentally, also finished getting lost with lost season 3.
Got me pondering about the concept of lost. Won’t discuss about the series, that will be a critique’s job and reminds me of practical criticism class for literature and fiction in school which I am happy to discuss but may bore to death those who don’t chase the series, also coz that is not the point but more so how it provoked me into the chain of thoughts that follow.
Questioning purpose in life...
Not always been a clear minded gal with distinct goals and directions, maybe that’s why I like lost?
Wonder if a day will come where I don’t feel lost or aimless. Tend to get that more when I am in dubai. Then I thought, how easy it is to get yourself lost in this unique environment and make-up in middle-east’s la la land. I salute those people I met who are singly driven and focused to be here to earn a certain amount of money, be it to clear debts or pay for a house or education, in the shortest time possible(of which they have no life, just coop at home or in hotels), and leave. No hesitation, never wavered…as for me, I came to dubai to see the world, experience living overseas, and wanted to save money. 5.5 years down the road, it seems that I indulged too much in the 1st two and failed miserably with saving. I do not want to lose that goal.
Then I wonder if some people spend their entire lives lost, with or without knowing it.
We all get lost in different things and situations from time to time. It’s like a procedure we must go through before we can attain purpose, enlightenment, answers, resolution, absolution. We often get lost coz we all have our own demons to fight, to change.
Is it bad to be lost, easier to stay lost like opting for an easier and more selfish way of life?
How do you get out of being lost? Is it something that, like some emotional baggage, you have to do it yourself while others can only help you to a certain extent.
There are times when I am frustrated with self at how lost I am in this life of mine and wasting it away and want to get out yet don’t know how. That is in the bigger and deeper sense of things. I am afraid sometimes that staying lost will become a comfort zone hard to get out of and be an excuse to things. The bizarre thing is I can’t fathom how can one be comfy in ‘lost-mode’? But as experience speaks, you jolly well can! Perhaps that is when I am escaping from issues and things…or am I just a spoilt, protected and lazy human at the end of the day. In a world full of arrows to tell u where is what, guidelines, and self-help books, all do not guarantee us not getting lost. Getting answers and directions does not lead you out from the maze all the time…but I do wish life is as simple as that.
To side-track a little, I am also a naturally blur-block and gladly accepts without a single ounce of offence, of recent nominations that I am most likely to walk into a pole. Haa! I have friends who have to literally jump in front of me to get my attention though they are in my direct line of vision and I just can’t see walking down streets or in malls. Yes I suck at situational awareness, just glad that does not happen all the time.
Is it true that some people are meant to do bigger things while others are meant to blend happily into oblivion?
But to me, it is perfectly fine to lead a small and anonymous life as long as you are happy.
To me, it is important to do the right thing, and that sometimes mean doing something you don’t like or may cause you sadness or sacrifice. I think being lost does not necessarily rob us of our ability to know what is right and wrong.
To me, you can be lost, but just don’t lose faith. Good thing faith comes in many forms to accommodate us all. We can find faith through diverse channels in everyday life from religion, food, words, books, TV, music, the list goes on. Once you lose faith, hope goes away and the end will be inevitable. Sometimes we think we lost it all but let me tell you, faith has a way of surviving and laying dormant in you in the most extreme of adversities. As badly bruised and hurt we may get in the daily wrestles with life, we must always leave an opening, no matter how small, to let things/people/feelings back in. We can build defensive walls to help us heal but they should be taken down when no longer required. Can’t keep accumulating walls, else we will be alone, and lost.
Am I less lost now after writing. A little I guess…that is sort the aim I suppose…voicing thoughts out loud hoping to make some sense to things.
Perhaps a feeble attempt to clear the mind which could still be tainted from watching lost, some residual effect? I don’t know. See! Already slipping back to own lost world…
One thing I know though, is that through all the lost-ness I experienced, I have found and realized things that I hold on dear to. I will never be immune to getting lost I guess, just hope that I will get to emerge wiser sometimes.
One answer always leads to another question.
Incidentally, also finished getting lost with lost season 3.
Got me pondering about the concept of lost. Won’t discuss about the series, that will be a critique’s job and reminds me of practical criticism class for literature and fiction in school which I am happy to discuss but may bore to death those who don’t chase the series, also coz that is not the point but more so how it provoked me into the chain of thoughts that follow.
Questioning purpose in life...
Not always been a clear minded gal with distinct goals and directions, maybe that’s why I like lost?
Wonder if a day will come where I don’t feel lost or aimless. Tend to get that more when I am in dubai. Then I thought, how easy it is to get yourself lost in this unique environment and make-up in middle-east’s la la land. I salute those people I met who are singly driven and focused to be here to earn a certain amount of money, be it to clear debts or pay for a house or education, in the shortest time possible(of which they have no life, just coop at home or in hotels), and leave. No hesitation, never wavered…as for me, I came to dubai to see the world, experience living overseas, and wanted to save money. 5.5 years down the road, it seems that I indulged too much in the 1st two and failed miserably with saving. I do not want to lose that goal.
Then I wonder if some people spend their entire lives lost, with or without knowing it.
We all get lost in different things and situations from time to time. It’s like a procedure we must go through before we can attain purpose, enlightenment, answers, resolution, absolution. We often get lost coz we all have our own demons to fight, to change.
Is it bad to be lost, easier to stay lost like opting for an easier and more selfish way of life?
How do you get out of being lost? Is it something that, like some emotional baggage, you have to do it yourself while others can only help you to a certain extent.
There are times when I am frustrated with self at how lost I am in this life of mine and wasting it away and want to get out yet don’t know how. That is in the bigger and deeper sense of things. I am afraid sometimes that staying lost will become a comfort zone hard to get out of and be an excuse to things. The bizarre thing is I can’t fathom how can one be comfy in ‘lost-mode’? But as experience speaks, you jolly well can! Perhaps that is when I am escaping from issues and things…or am I just a spoilt, protected and lazy human at the end of the day. In a world full of arrows to tell u where is what, guidelines, and self-help books, all do not guarantee us not getting lost. Getting answers and directions does not lead you out from the maze all the time…but I do wish life is as simple as that.
To side-track a little, I am also a naturally blur-block and gladly accepts without a single ounce of offence, of recent nominations that I am most likely to walk into a pole. Haa! I have friends who have to literally jump in front of me to get my attention though they are in my direct line of vision and I just can’t see walking down streets or in malls. Yes I suck at situational awareness, just glad that does not happen all the time.
Is it true that some people are meant to do bigger things while others are meant to blend happily into oblivion?
But to me, it is perfectly fine to lead a small and anonymous life as long as you are happy.
To me, it is important to do the right thing, and that sometimes mean doing something you don’t like or may cause you sadness or sacrifice. I think being lost does not necessarily rob us of our ability to know what is right and wrong.
To me, you can be lost, but just don’t lose faith. Good thing faith comes in many forms to accommodate us all. We can find faith through diverse channels in everyday life from religion, food, words, books, TV, music, the list goes on. Once you lose faith, hope goes away and the end will be inevitable. Sometimes we think we lost it all but let me tell you, faith has a way of surviving and laying dormant in you in the most extreme of adversities. As badly bruised and hurt we may get in the daily wrestles with life, we must always leave an opening, no matter how small, to let things/people/feelings back in. We can build defensive walls to help us heal but they should be taken down when no longer required. Can’t keep accumulating walls, else we will be alone, and lost.
Am I less lost now after writing. A little I guess…that is sort the aim I suppose…voicing thoughts out loud hoping to make some sense to things.
Perhaps a feeble attempt to clear the mind which could still be tainted from watching lost, some residual effect? I don’t know. See! Already slipping back to own lost world…
One thing I know though, is that through all the lost-ness I experienced, I have found and realized things that I hold on dear to. I will never be immune to getting lost I guess, just hope that I will get to emerge wiser sometimes.
One answer always leads to another question.
1 comment:
U can still save!U just need to balance your spending and saving. No need to forsake having a life in your attempt to save. As for being lost, I think its ok to be lost. It gives u time to take respite for the constant hum of the world. Get away for a while. Take a walk and see the things ard as u search for your answers. Think it is only then tat u start seeing things differently. Human beings r not perfect. It's ok to be lost.
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