I recently fancied this particular red heart charm. I must first say I never liked heart charms, but this particular one seemed to endear to my heart. Must be the only heart thingy I owned so far. I thought about how this little I-dun-even-know-what-its-made-of heart suddenly became so close to me so fast. I came up with a couple of theories which are sort of linked and could sound crappy or eccentric to some of you. But this is my blog anyway so here goes:
1) I wear my heart on my sleeve all the time but am trying not to lately so I figured I will use that charm(which is lonely-hooked on my bracelet) to remind self not to do that, or at least not all the time to start with.
2) My heart is healing(work in progress) and do not wish to expose it so if I must expose my heart let this charm do the job then..both literally and figuratively. Coz this heart can take more shit than mine at the moment and can’t feel as well as my real heart. Now, my heart needs a break and needs to kind of shut down for maintenance. The only heart I am willing to show as substitute is this little lovely bugger.
Don’t get me wrong…I am not aiming to turn heartless. I give the benefit of doubt to all human beings that we just can’t be heartless. That is not a possible feat and should not be if u are human. Yes I still have my ideals about life and faith in life and the good in general which will naturally suffer repeated setbacks and blows from time to time and force you to question your faith and purpose. But we must not lose faith, or we risk losing ourselves eventually.
1) I wear my heart on my sleeve all the time but am trying not to lately so I figured I will use that charm(which is lonely-hooked on my bracelet) to remind self not to do that, or at least not all the time to start with.
2) My heart is healing(work in progress) and do not wish to expose it so if I must expose my heart let this charm do the job then..both literally and figuratively. Coz this heart can take more shit than mine at the moment and can’t feel as well as my real heart. Now, my heart needs a break and needs to kind of shut down for maintenance. The only heart I am willing to show as substitute is this little lovely bugger.
Don’t get me wrong…I am not aiming to turn heartless. I give the benefit of doubt to all human beings that we just can’t be heartless. That is not a possible feat and should not be if u are human. Yes I still have my ideals about life and faith in life and the good in general which will naturally suffer repeated setbacks and blows from time to time and force you to question your faith and purpose. But we must not lose faith, or we risk losing ourselves eventually.
While I allow self to let my heart heal, I must first believe that it WILL heal.
2 comments:
Time is the balm for everything.You will recover and see all the colours in the world again. If it helps wear as many hearts on you as possible! At least work is in progress. Good luck!
It's the healing part tht is most painful. Take as much time as you need ... To believe in yourself is the key to strengthen your self-being. It's a shame... the person tht our heart trust the most, is the one tht trashes it into pieces tht the tiny ones disperse in a distance. You will gather your pieces in a whole, believe in yourself ... you can and you will go thru it, many of us did and many of us survived thru it. xx.
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